One of the things that makes me anxious about working 40 hours a week is that the 40 hours are scheduled. I’m not able to move freely between work and home.
It’s so ordered.
The only thing I can do between 9-6 is work. Everything else: friends, family, yoga, walks around a lake has to be done between 7:00 pm and 8:00 am. (Including a commute which as to be considered.)
At least 8 of those hours have to be reserved for sleep. Because I require a consistent, adequate amount of sleep for a sustained cheerful and willing disposition. So that time has to be earmarked too.
Which gets me down to 5 hours a day (work/commute hours minus sleep hours) to achieve everything else that I like to do.
AND I’M A NIGHT OWL! Which makes mornings slow and sluggish…not a great way to start the day. Not a great recipe for maximizing those few non-working weekday hours.
And for all of these reasons…I am freaking out.
It puts so much pressure on the application process. If I at least find an organization with a mission that I believe in and assignments that I enjoy maybe I won’t notice that I only have 5 hours to accommodate both the planned and spontaneous events in life.