THIS IS TRANSITION THERAPY’S 100th POST!
Which seems like an appropriate time to clarify what “this” is.
I ask a lot of big questions, I know that. Not everyone is on board. I know that too. (No hard feelings.)
I also know that a lot of people probably think that I’m in a constant state of struggle over these big questions and uncomfortable transitions. And the answer is, NOT EVEN HARDLY. Once, it was a more constant struggle. Not any more.
[For the number people: I’m in a good or “gooder” place about 90% of the time. Seriously.
I think that’s a pretty solid percentage.]
So there is no need to panic. Or worry about how I’m doing. I do appreciate the concern, but take heart. I write about the small chunks of time when I do wrestle with anxiety, doubt, guilt — or the things that I just don’t want to do, but know that I need to — because it lessens their hold over me. And I think that, if I am diligent in their excavation, there will be a day when these small chunks of time reduce to slivers and then disappear. But to get there, I have to inspect these emotions as they arise, to find out what is at the core.
It’s just my individualized neurosis.]
Because when I discover the source of the emotion, I experience an instantaneous surge of relief in my heart and the muscles of my shoulders, neck, and back relax. Which indicates progress. Because I know that the specific concern or fear that triggered the last bout of anxiety or guilt will not hold me back again.
When I write about it, it helps complete the cleanse.