My new job search has a momentum and motivation behind it that others have not. I type that with conviction.
This one will be different.
I know this because I’m finally able to answer a question that nagged me:
WHY DO I EVEN NEED A JOB?
The standard answers of rent, food, transportation don’t cut it for me. I can never get sustained motivation out of the requirement for basic necessities. My answer needs an intangible, constant, highly individualized component. So that if my job turns into a dense wall of frustration,
[Because it can happen. Even with a job that I love.]
I can take a deep breath and remember the bigger reasons. I am doing this because I believe in the mission of the organization I work for. Or I am doing this because I know what my goal looks like and this is a great first step. And right now it’s important to Joe that I become a contributing member of the full-time, no-end-date workforce again.
I want to do this for him, but I also want to do it for me. I want to know that I can handle a full-time, no-end-date job and sustain a thriving personal life. I need to prove this to myself.